Every now and then I go through a phase where I just don’t care about much. I’ll stop worrying about my homework for a week or so, I won’t bother cleaning any more than I absolutely have to, and I’ll buy myself all kinds of stuff I don’t need. It’s like I take a break from life.
Right now, I’m in one of those phases and my timing couldn’t be worse. I have a stats midterm tomorrow and I’ve barely studied. I’ve tried (sort of), but I just can’t make myself care about it. Instead, I spent a good chunk of my weekend watching 80’s movies with an unopened text book on my lap. I like to call it studying through osmosis.
The rest of the time I’ve been too busy shopping, and eating my feelings to bother worrying about much else.
I went to the doctor about my knee on Saturday. He thinks I have something called exostosis, which is a painful but benign bone growth, and is sending me for x-rays. I asked if I could still run, and he basically told me that he knew I would either way, so just to be careful and I should be fine. So for now, it’s good(ish) news. We’ll know for sure when the x-rays are done.
I realize that at 27 I’m very lucky this is my first medical issue, but I’m still pretty frustrated about it (hence the feeling eating). I feel like it’s just another thing to add to my list of things to do, and I don’t feel like dealing with it (I will though).
Hopefully I can get myself in for an x-ray this week, and then maybe I’ll start caring about life again. Maybe.
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I go through those periods too. Sometimes they help. So sorry to hear about your knee. I really hope they’re able to help you out.
Sorry you are having such a meh time. The knee thing would really take me for a spin too (and the studying for things I don’t like… although maybe you like stats?!). I hope you get in for that xray! I want to know more! And when you can get back your running release!
A little life break is necessary sometimes and helps us to recharge. Good luck with the xrays!
I’m so sorry sweet girl. Sending healing thoughts you way. Keep us updated…and know that this too will pass!
I so eat my feelings too. It’s a hard cycle to break too. I hope everything works out with your knee. I know that’s so frustrating! xo
I go through phases like that, too. I think it’s just your brain telling you that you’re too stressed and need to slow down. I’m glad you got some (relatively, anyway) good news about your knee!