By Leah @ Why Deprive?, on January 27th, 2013
Every now and then I go through a phase where I just don’t care about much. I’ll stop worrying about my homework for a week or so, I won’t bother cleaning any more than I absolutely have to, and I’ll buy myself all kinds of stuff I don’t need. It’s like I take a break from life.
Right now, I’m in one of those phases and my timing couldn’t be worse. I have a stats midterm tomorrow and I’ve barely studied. I’ve tried (sort of), but I just can’t make myself care about it. Instead, I spent a good chunk of my weekend watching 80’s movies with an unopened text book on my lap. I like to call it studying through osmosis.
The rest of the time I’ve been too busy shopping, and eating my feelings to bother worrying about much else.
I went to the doctor about my knee on Saturday. He thinks I have something called exostosis, which is a painful but benign bone growth, and is sending me for x-rays. I asked if I could still run, and he basically told me that he knew I would either way, so just to be careful and I should be fine. So for now, it’s good(ish) news. We’ll know for sure when the x-rays are done.
I realize that at 27 I’m very lucky this is my first medical issue, but I’m still pretty frustrated about it (hence the feeling eating). I feel like it’s just another thing to add to my list of things to do, and I don’t feel like dealing with it (I will though).
Hopefully I can get myself in for an x-ray this week, and then maybe I’ll start caring about life again. Maybe.
By Leah @ Why Deprive?, on January 22nd, 2013
I feel like all I’ve been posting about lately is how nothing exciting is going on and I don’t have anything to write about. But that’s a big fat lie. The truth is, lots of stuff has been going on, I’m just not really ready to write about it. So instead I’ve hidden from my blog and kind of just kept to myself.
I don’t like it.
I like writing about my life, and putting everything out there because I feel like it helps alleviate my crazy.
Since there’s a lot of stuff right now, I’m just going to pick one topic. The one that may be making me the craziest.
I can’t run right now.
Like, at all.
Something’s up with my knee, it’s been bugging me for months and it’s not really getting any better.
I’ve iced it, I’ve rested, it’s gotten better, and then I’ve tried running. A week and a half ago I ran an entirely flat 5k and I thought I was ok. Actually, I was ok. I mean, it was rough, I hadn’t run at all for a month, and that was pretty clear. But my knee felt good.
My legs on the other hand, didn’t fare so well. I was so sore I even resorted to an ice bath. It was not a good time.
But even after the ice bath, and the rest, there’s a weird lump on my knee and it’s not going away. It doesn’t hurt all the time, only when I bend it. So basically I’m not going to risk running on it until I’ve seen a doctor (hopefully this week).
In the past two months, I’ve run twice. With all the school and life stress, I need a way to unwind. I feel like I’ve lost my outlet and I have no idea what to do with myself.
So that’s where we are right now. I need to find some spare time to get myself to the doctor, and in the meantime I need to figure out a way to keep myself from going crazy. So far, I’m not doing too well.
By Leah @ Why Deprive?, on January 17th, 2013
School started last week and my life has pretty much gotten back to normal. And by normal, I mean crazy.
I’ve gotten back into my routine, and it’s busy, but busy suits me.
I almost always have a textbook in my purse, you know, just in case I find an extra couple minutes to read a page or two.
And I’ve been spending an excessive amount of time at my parents house because it’s easier to do my homework there than at home. There are less distractions, and Lexie finds it easier to supervise and make sure I don’t get sidetracked.
She’s pretty helpful.
Another thing that’s back to normal is my insomnia. My body has been trying to come down with a cold for a few weeks, so I’ve been feeling half sick for awhile. Now with the school stress and such on top of that, I’ve barely been sleeping at all. It’s been pretty fun. Coffee and I have basically become BFF’s.
Weirdly enough though, I kind of like it. Being tired sucks, but I’m not bored any more. I’ve got things to do, and I love that. It feels good to be busy. The break this year was just too long for me. It gave me way too much time to obsess about other things and make myself crazy, and I’m just so glad that’s over.
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